The past few weeks have been filled with many ups and downs, and there were days where I want to quit everything and run away to a place where people would not bother me. I wanted to quit my job, I wanted to leave my family and move elsewhere there is no more hardships and no one to get on my nerve. This week is definitely better at work, I shared my anxiety with some coworkers and they seemed to understand and acknowledged it, and the atmosphere in the family is more calm despite the regular small bickering that every family is prone to have, and it gives me peace to know my family is back to a normal state.
Life is definitely an endless journey that is filled with bumps and rocks that we all have to pass by. When I thought everything is fine, another problem arises and takes my peace away. During my exercise session, the thought of the future lurks itself out and I find myself to get anxious over what road should I take in the near future. The thought of who I should marry, what career path should I take, how will I support myself, what if I date someone and we break up, what if I marry someone in the future and get a divorce like half of the clients all appear. I was not able to listen to NPR like I generally do while doing some exercise at home. Then it hits me that this is a part of the journey of life. Life is and will always be filled with obstacles that I have no control over what will happen and all I have to do is accept it for what it really is and enjoy the ride. Being patient with my learning self is crucial on this trek and being able to enjoy ride won't be easy but keeping my focus will help tremendously.
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