Being Misunderstood

A guy friend once told me that it is easy for people to misunderstand me especially when they have no clue who I am.  Over the years, I learn to accept the fact. I learn to accept when people give me attitude or end his/her friendship with me because they do not see any point of being around me or that they see me as this unfriendly person. I don't know why people see me as disrespectful or rude but that is a general consensus from the people I meet and especially when I have no intention to. I used to cry over the fact because as humans we all want to belong and to fit in and to connect with other people and when someone rejects us, it is like all hell breaks loose and we find ourselves clueless on how to handle the situation.  I used to be upset with the fact that people view me that way and lately I  have tried to work on being softer and more people-conscious.

I don't want to blame anyone or myself for how I am today as blaming will not do me any good. The only solution is to constantly throw myself out there in social settings and to continually be more conscious of people and their needs.

One good thing about growing older is that we learn to accept ourselves. We learn to accept our flaws, our setbacks, our failures, and we are willing to work on being a better person.  It might take me months and even years to work on my interpersonal skills but I am willing to take that chance, even if I might fail at some point.  In the song "Happiness" by the Fray, it says, "Happiness is like the old man told me. Look for it, and you'll never find it all.  But let it go, live your life and leave it then one day, you'll wake up and she'll be home."  If I am good with people, then I will be happy. The problem is what if I never reach to that happy point? What if I stay the same and never get along with anyone? Like the song say, when we look for the happiness we will never find it and the only way for us to find is to live and one day we will find her. This means if I want to reach the goal of get along with people, I should not think and hope too much of it but rather I should live and work on myself and that happiness will come one day. People say patience pays off in the end and I am going to be patient with myself for now, because eventually happiness will come.