Time as the Healer

The past four years have been the hardest part of my life.  I was fighting uphill battles every day where I have no way of winning and the light at the end of the tunnel seems so far way and unreachable; I was crushed every day by the external factors that I had no control over and no matter what I do, things just get worst and worst over time.  I hated every minute of it and to be honest I still hate 60% of my life right now; four years ago, my life agenda was all planned out by years. I was supposed to finish graduate school by 29 and then get married at 30 and have a kid or two but the plan failed to work out and I find myself to have to play by ear and hope everything would turn out the way it supposed to be.  My personal and professional life took a hard hit especially; I had to let go  of friendships that were expired a long time ago and which were unhealthy to keep around and I had to choose a different career path.  To be honest, I was young and naive so I didn't know what I was looking for in relationships and the thought of picking the right career for me never cross my mind; I chose a career where money was in abundant and where I know for sure I would make enough to live in a big house and car.

Four years later, I finally come into term with my life right now.  I feel free to do what I want and say what I want now without feeling guilty about it.  Certainly, I still have some shitty days and there are time where I want to fly to another planet and not have to come back. but I am a better person because of all the difficulties I had to go through.  Time is a odd being; it has the power to turn a person's life upside down and it can turn a life for the better in just a second.  Time is definitely a healer and it's definitely healing me slowly as I walk on this path we all call "life."  I finally accept life for what it is and the grudge I used to hold back is finally releasing itself.  Acceptance frees the soul and it heals whatever wounds that were inflicted upon it, whether it was intentionally or unintentionally or not.  Time and acceptance go hand-in-hand and when they converge, we see life for what it is and focus on the important things in life.  Time is not just a number, it's a living being that can transform us into a different being at any time or place.