Christmas Day 2016

Today is another year of Christmas.  I woke up at 7AM and went to a church service, and then gave my mother a visit.  We had a simple Vietnamese style lunch and made some small conversation about each other's life.   This is just like any other year. Same old, same old way of living I call it.

But for some reason this year feels different.  Surely it might be that I have changed so much in such a short amount of time. I am more assured of myself more than ever and confident in my own skin but this seems to make no difference in how this abnormal feeling arises and reveals itself.  While some people take years to become a new and better person, I became a new person in about two months.  Growing up I have always thought I was a shy and unconfident child but this year turned everything around and I found the confidence that I need to survive this competitive world.

Rather than dwelling on this odd feeling I made sure to remind myself to make this Christmas day as the beginning of a new year.  Each new year is a new opportunity.  Though I don't know what is to come, I know that making opportunities is my main focus.

The One Feeling

During my Europe trip I found that writing what I learned and what I saw was the best way to discover my own thoughts and to help my brain process what is going on around me.  Through writing I learned how to trust myself and to make the best of what I have.  Writing is a hidden form of therapy where one can always use it to their own advantage; it may even be better than medicine and the actual professional therapy a patient gets.

The past few months have been a whirlwind of experiences that I have never encounter in my life and writing them down was of no use. Here is one time where writing has been failing me at each step of the way.  I am old enough to know and to what expect out of what is happening to me but the past few months have been out of my own understanding. I am not claiming to be a smart person but I can understand most things in life just by using logic. But the experiences in this past months requires more than logic to help me understand.  I don't know what is to come but I think something is coming and it is taking its time and going at a high speed at the same time. Paradoxical I know. But that is how I feel and I cannot shrug this feeling off my chest.  I used to have a bad feeling toward this "thing" but the more I dig into trying to comprehend its vastness and its definition I find that this incoming "thing" might be bigger and out of my own understanding than I can ever imagine.   I guess all I can do is to sit back, be a scientist, and see what is to come.

You can be resourceful without having the resource.
- TOMS creator

7/23/2015

Lasting Change

If we want lasting change, we have to make friend with pain.

-http://www.lifehack.org/320913/want-lasting-change-make-pain-your-friend

Painful emotions are an extremely effective way to avoid unwanted behaviors. Once you make pain your friend, you can change your life in an instant.

1/2016

“I've learned that everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.”-Kristin Laura Kreuk's Instagram

early 2016