Nostalgia

I was listening to some of the older Japanese songs that I enjoyed during the college years dated in 2005 and the videos bring back a flood of good memories of those innocent years where I didn't know anything about the world and life.  It brought back the happy time where I just live in my sheltered world and not giving any care about what the world has to say about me. I didn't care if I needed to make money, who I should marry, how to choose the right career, how to deal with people, etc.  It's the bittersweet feeling that I hate and miss at the same time and revisiting it would be a great ride.

In retrospect, I made many right decisions on some of the paths in my life. I chose to complete college rather than having no interest in education; there were time where I wanted to quit school and be a bum rather than going through the hardships that school created.  I hated studying for exams, hated testing, but what kept me going was my love for learning.  I came from a business family in South Asia and most of my family barely finished high school so education was definitely not our top priority.  We value integrity, honesty, hard work, endurance, and no doubt money but when it came to education, my family is not apathetic to it, we just don't know how to succeed in this area of life so as a result, many of my family members do not try hard to be the best they can be in the schooling system.  School is a game that must be mastered in order to succeed and my family has never master it so our attitude toward education is neutral. We know education will take us further than not having one but we ran into the problem of not knowing how it can enhance our life.  Today, I value education and see a big difference between individuals who have one and who lack it.  Education opens door to opportunities that some jobs can never and will never.

Life is filled with surprise and the process of passing the stages in life will not be easy at times. What matters is we keep going and when we look back, we will see how much we have grown and appreciate that life let us tread on that unwanted or wanted path. Things have to fall apart in order for better things to emerge and for us to grow as humans.